The Shit, Hath Hit-ith, The Fan, Ith

Yesterday I got myself catastrophe insurance for the month of December. As a beautiful women said, “It’s so I can get hit by a bus now.”

The insurance lady asked me all kinds of questions to evaluate how likely I am to do something extreme, like the obvious base jumping, that would result in needing to up the price of my insurance. One of her questions was if I was over 300 lbs.

You know the saying “When it rains it pours?”

It’s winter, so it’s not raining, but we have started to enjoy a few flurries in the romantic city of Chicago…all covered in twinkle lights.

Allow me to explain.

About 3 weeks ago the wonderful company H and I were working for closed up shop. One morning we woke up and were gamefully employed, but by the afternoon H and I had entered this weird phase called, “being without work.”

There is something disgustingly giggle-worthy about being able to respond to the question, “So how are you doing?” with “My company shut down. How are you?” People don’t know how to react. But I’ve narrowed it down to a few thoughts I notice running through their heads:

“Shit!”

“Oh my goshhhhh, are you okay? So what now? I’m so sorry. Uh. Aw. Hm. Aw. Uh. Boo. Frown face.”

“What the heck did you do to cause that?”

“On to the next one then, eh!?”

And of course, “Ooh baby, I’m hot just like an oven.  I need some lovin’”


Yes. Life throws curves. But it’s not the dilemmas that make living less than easy, it’s how you handle them. Savvy Avenue is shut down, well, it sucks. But we’re not mad, we’re not even truly upset, it was the best roller coaster ride I’ve ever gotten paid to be on. I certainly would have loved if the company had been a wowing success, but then again, what’s the fun in that? Being a part of the Savvy Avenue story is one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I came, I learned, I saw, and I now know how to go about shutting down a state or country or community center when the time comes and H and I decide (with unfaltering reasoning) that we no longer like someplace.

So….where are we now?

I’d be lying if I said it’s been a cake walk or easy or enjoyable since leaving the company. But I’d also be lying if I said It’s been horrible. It hasn’t. As is everything, it’s been an adventure.

I’d love to say, “the good news is, everything in our personal lives is on track,” but that’s not true either. Something about not having your own desk at an office seems to mess with the aura of life, and H’s iphone screen. A lot of things have been suddenly going wrong. Like, getting “broken up with” in various unexpected situations and ways. You forget you have food allergies. Then things pop out of the wood work, like you have to pay rent and feed your coffee/wine habits. I’m not complaining. I have no reason to complain. But I find it amazing how life beats people up sometimes.

Naturally, the funds are running a little low, which is seriously going to effect our campaign for world leadership. So we’ve been focusing our adventures on finding our next fundraising opportunity. In other words, job interviews (or sometimes meetings.)

Yet, in the midst of it all, thanks to the karma gods, amazing things always end up happening too. So, despite the tightness in my chest and the times I throw my head into my hands in angst, I’m doing like really really great.

I’ll let H relay the specifics of her own spinning wheel of uncertainty.

In my world, big decisions have to be made. Big. Huge. It’s a good problem to have. I have a few amazing paths I can travel in the coming months. The mental process of figuring out which road to choose has been keeping me up at night. Luckily, sometimes not being able to sleep in the middle of the night is okay. Wed night for example, even better than okay, great.

As a result of it all, I’m going to flee the country at the end of the month. Figure it’s time I take the sabbatical from life that I never gave myself after I graduated college. I’ll be back though, It’s only temporary.

Happy Hanukkah,

-C